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If you have been following "A Matter of Mantra" series, you may realize that it is that time again when I have reached a close to a chapter in my mantra writing.
For first time visitors, "A Matter of Mantra" is a blog series I created where I share the mantras I use in my daily life, how they came to me, and how they help me. My special edition posts are when I share the feeling that I have embraced a new mantra into my life.
The truth is, repeating a mantra is a way to ingrain a belief into one's mind. Repeating enough times will make the mantra into a belief and that belief into a reality. Making the mantra a reality means that the mantra has been embraced.
After a long journey, I have finally decided to close the chapter of writing this mantra in my daily writing: "Negative emotions rise up to be released."
So, how do I know it is time to embrace the mantra? First clue could be the crimping in my hand. I've invested many lines of writing 'Negative emotions rise up to be released.' Three words written five times each day is 15 words a day. This mantra has taken me a while to master as it is the first of my mantras I incorporated into my day.
It took this long to master because I am an emotional person. In the past, I take criticism as personal and do my best to conceal what I feel to appear unscathed. For a long time, I hid the damages in my heart. Each moment is a link to a chain that I bind to myself tighter and tighter until the conversations became to a standstill because I could not talk. I locked myself from speaking my heart and letting my voice be heard, torn between different factions of my heart.
For those who read my "Matter of Mantra" series so far, it is possible that they pick up on my deep seeded care for people. Those that mean the most are the ones that can also harm me the most. They are the ones I fear to show the cracks in my heart. Charlotte Kaye really helped me in mastering my feelings. The greatest fear was the barrier I created between me and my mom because I feared voicing what I felt because I feared harming her feelings. It finally dawned that I was really making the situation worse by not letting
Now that I've decided I've broken the chain that shackled me, what happens?
The mantra does not disappear. It is already part of your beliefs and your reality. This can either mean focusing on other mantras or deciding on what new mantra to embrace.
I am still deciding which way I would swing, but that is part of the fun of mantras. They can be whatever you want it to be. If I make a new one, I'm certain you'll see it down the line.
This is Waggish Writer signing off of this post. Stay tune for more from "A Matter of Mantra" series!
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